HOW I DIDN'T KILL MY FATHER AND HOW MUCH I REGRET IT - MATEUSZ PAKUŁA

A shocking story about dying that deeply touches. An intimate diary of a father's dying, which becomes a testimony of helplessness in the face of illness and the healthcare system. It is not only a memoir, but above all a brutally honest account of a family's borderline situation. Mateusz Pakuła describes with extraordinary courage and uncompromisingly the emotions that accompany the passing of a loved one. Anger, despair, helplessness and rage mix with tenderness and closeness, creating a moving picture of human suffering.

• Honest and intimate story about a father's dying.
• Brutally true picture of a family in a borderline situation.
• Criticism of care institutions that fail.
• Courage to address difficult topics, such as euthanasia.
• A mixture of emotions: tenderness, anger, despair and rage.
• Grotesque and terribly funny way of talking about difficult matters.
• Testimony of helplessness in the face of illness and the healthcare system.

"How I Didn't Kill My Father and How Much I Regret It" is a book that makes you reflect on life, death and human dignity. It is a story about love that must face the greatest challenge - saying goodbye to a loved one. Mateusz Pakuła is not afraid to show the emotions that accompany this process, which makes his book so moving and authentic.

The author describes with extraordinary precision the realities of caring for a dying person. He shows the absurdities of the system, which, instead of helping, often makes life difficult for patients and their families. It is a cry of despair over the lack of dignified dying conditions and the lack of a legal possibility of euthanasia. This book is an important voice in the discussion about human rights and dignity in the face of death.

Mateusz Pakuła is a writer, playwright and theater director. His work is characterized by the courage to address difficult topics and the uncompromising way of showing human emotions. He is a laureate of many literary and theater awards. His books and performances are highly appreciated by both critics and audiences.

The book was published by Nisza Publishing House in 2022. It has 222 pages and a format of 139x211 mm. Cover: blister.